Friday, January 22, 2010

My How Time Flies...



The past year has flown by and can only be described as: SURVIVED. We survived another deployment, sleep deprivation and kindergarten. Learning to read for Gabe, learning that she wasn't abandoned by Daddy for Grace. Moving away from a place that felt something close to home and best friends and then moving again after only nine weeks. A new job for Hung that causes him to deploy this May when we were looking forward to two years together uninterrupted. What to do about more babies. Adoption or fertility treatments? Where and when? How? Will I ever feel normal or has God allowed this suffering for His greater purposes? This year I want to react less, love more and grow closer to Him. The Truth is not always clear to me because I have not hidden enough of His Word in my heart. Do I desire more children because I feel unsatisfied or am I being prompted? Why can't I tell the difference right now? We are incredibly blessed to be close to family after almost seven years of being either overseas or on the west coast. I no longer have to miss my mother's hugs. So much to look forward to this year yet so much up in the air. Only He knows where we are headed and I pray that we can do everything for His glory. More of Him, less of me. That is my motto this year.

2 comments:

Jay and Chandra and Penny Regan said...

Love your update! I'm sure that God will be near to you as you desire more of Him.

Wendy said...

April,
So glad to see your update. Happy all is well with your family. I've got my own blog now...check it out so you can see how Grace's "foster sister", Lily is doing.

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